Life as a Roller Coaster
Its been awhile since I posted anything really. I didn’t want to jinx myself. I want to say though that so far things are working out between us. The last month has been a complete roller coaster. Not only between my relationship with Chris but the stress from family and school. Right now though it seems like one is getting better. I’m really happy about that. A week ago he decided that he was still coming for Christmas which made me elated to the point where I was about to burst with joy. I was so excited and happy. I kept thinking to myself that “Maybe he’s giving us a second chance. Maybe he still believes in us.”
I had hope for us. Maybe life didn’t hate me as much as I though. Especially after my best friend gave me the news that she probably won’t be able to see me for Christmas. But that story is completely irrelevant from this one.
But then a couple days later he gave me horrible news which pretty much made me completely depressed again. He won’t be able to come for Christmas. My life felt like a nightmare once again. It was life was teasing me. Give me a little hope and suddenly take it away. Theres that saying that “Life’s a bitch” and yeah I completely agree. Life was laughing in my face. Who would have thought I’d be lucky enough to get a second chance.
But things did turn around, thank goodness. The next day while we were skyping we came up with the idea that since he couldn’t go, I’ll go see him. Granted I really would prefer him to come over instead, I still get to see him. I feel a bit guilty to my parents because I’m once again leaving them for Christmas but I need to see Chris again. I know he really wants to see me too and from the way things are going we’re going to work things out. Also a good thing about me going over to France for Christmas is that I get him all summer! <3 I miss him so much! And I can’t wait to see him again! 35 more days baby!
